I get asked all the time if I feel bad for wearing a wire on those I was around. I never feel bad about it at all. I did like John Goggles Baudanza. He was not like the rest of the losers. The guy was an acting Capo in the Lucchese Family and he was a participant in the Colombo war. My job was to gather evidence of on an going criminal enterprise. Once I decided to do that for the FBI it was a job. I never let my feeling blur the line between my job and the people I met. I never considered these people friends anyway. They were criminals I met along the way.
I paid for my crimes and I continue to pay for them. I work on doing the right thing everyday.
When a guy decides to flip or become a CI it is no easy change. It is a lifestyle that has become all you know. It is hard. After I left the street I was alone for a year. I used that time to reflect on my former life. I admit at first I felt like I was missing something. It was like being a drug addict! I kicked the Mafia habit. After my year I went to Spain to just get life in to prospective!
I have a friend now who will be in the program soon. I know what he faces and I hope he stays strong!
Kenji OC on the Deadliest Warrior!